I don’t know where to start. 

As usual with me, things are pretty bitter sweet at the moment.. though I’m thankful to report more sweet than bitter.

I’m struggling, truly struggling with work on my MA thesis. It’s not that I can’t do it, it’s simply that the balance in my life is not right… just yet. I’m thinking what I really need is to get away, somewhere quiet, green, cool, and away from the noise of where I live and really dig deep. Other than that I’m really pleased with how school is going.. I’m doing well, I could be doing better.. but I never imagined getting A’s.. and as small as that truly is in the big picture, I’m really thankful.

I’ve been browsing through Queen Afua’s Sacred Woman it’s a little tricky to do alone (but thankfully one of my sisters will be joining me in the journey). It’s also a little difficult for me because I’m not really into ‘Khametic’ systems.. but she raises some great points about purifying, healing from the inside out and the outside in..most fascinatingly, she proposes that if others around you aren’t doing the same, it kind of defeats the purpose… so on that note..

I’m about to go make a nice vegan meal for me and RB. Today, the 7th of July, we have been together for 21 months. I think that’s amazing. It’s not worth mentioning the many ‘down’ periods we’ve had in the last few weeks, because today and tomorrow are not yesterday, right?

I’m going to do an avocado and tomato salsa and three bean burgers, with some home made mint lemonade.. easy, light summer meal..

Tomorrow I’m going to pack up my things and look for that space of sanctuary where I can really think and start to work as I need to..

I’ve been thinking a lot about New York for some reason.. 

I guess a part of it is that these last three years have been the longest I’ve been away from the city..

But it’s more than that. As much as I do not like the US, my spirit has been telling me it is a place I need to be for a while.. I love the art culture, the cuisine, and the atmosphere, especially in Brooklyn. So tomorrow I start looking at internships and other opportunities.. not to mention that NYU and Columbia are two schools I would drop this degree in a second to attend. I can’t ignore what my spirit tells me, and so the journey begins..

Other than that I’ve been thinking seriously about my plans after January. I’m hoping to get some work as a tutor from Sept to Dec. Lord knows I need the extra cash, moving back into my parents’ home isn’t really anything I had on the cards past the age of 22, and so I seriously need to start generating some income.. with the end goal of creating my own income, working for someone else into my 50s/60s is not something I want to do.. (the song “Miss Independent” just popped into my head)

Ok, I’m off to get the ingredients for dinner..

I really should blog more often, even if it’s just for myself. It really puts things into perspective.